blank mind!

...who the hell makes these sad songs..and fools like us..know that they are gonna hurt us..still we listen to them...and then do what? bingo! cry... cry..cryy...its a fool's job..and yes! i am a fool..a big fool..



everyday , every moment i live under a fear..now what...what happenned now? why the same thing again..deja vu they say..the day passes by like anything, not bothering me at all, but its the darkness of night that kills me..and when i try to fight this darkness, i end up loosing..loosing to my weakness.. am i sounding like a parasite? something which is dependent on others...
no..i am not..just that i think too much..



....my parents seem amazed because they cant figure out why i am smiling one moment and frowning the other..i am living under the fear of loosing something i never had and not even going to have.. haha..seems my posts are becoming darker and darker everytime like harry potter series.. oh darn! i hate these sad songs... time to grab some chocolate excess..